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Silver (pt I)

I’ve thought too much

Reaching silver in a daze

Don’t stay too long

It won’t mean anything

Unless you mean what you say

I’ve had some time

To seek the unthinkable

Do the unreachable

Break my heart, slowly babe

I know I never fell in love

Once I do, it’ll be magical

So I’m reaching silver in a daze

Because I know I’m still

Hopelessly the dreamer, me

Romantically in need

In love with life

Without him near me

So I’m reaching silver on my own

Discovering myself

Reinventing my name

Look for better days

I’m in love with life

When I’m on my own

When I don’t bring me down

For past mistakes

I’m reaching silver in a daze

Like I’m high out of air

Can’t wait to meet you there

Whoever ‘you’ are

My future company

Reaching silver in a daze

Reinvented my own name

For all the times I’ve saved myself

While dancing in the rain

Reaching silver in a daze

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The Problem With You

The problem with you is that you’re perfect

At least thats what you want to be

The question isn’t if you are worth it

Rather if you can see worth in me

The problem with you is that you post what you eat

What you do, what you wear, endlessly

The problem with you is that you care too much

Of what x,y, and z think of you and me

The problem is that you can’t be yourself

Because you don’t even know what that means

The problem is your face which you

Fix to look like everybody else

The problem is that you can’t step out

Without an ounce of makeup

The problem is that you need approval

When you don’t approve of anyone

The problem with you is that its time

For me to realize you are not my right or type

Its wrong that I obsess to change you

When you are what you want to be

The problem with you is that I love you

But you’re not meant for me

 

 

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He Did It For The Likes (Poem 2)

He said he’s been sober for 6 months now

But I know he’s never be an alcoholic

He don’t drink much, honestly

Unless he’s going to get laid

Trust me, I know I know

He’s been in rehab

To avoid responsibility

His Mom and Daddy pay

To keep their bit of dignity

I know I know

He avoids going to school

Forced into his part-time job

He doesn’t have a drinking problem

Although he is a total slob

I know I know

For sure, I can swear

From the bottom of my

Soul to the tip of my hair

He posted about this success

Just so you can feel the pain

Over a made up illness

He did it for the likes

He did it to prove me wrong

Knowing well he ain’t right

He did it for the likes

He did it so his friends and family

Reach out for all the wasted time

But I know I know

He doesn’t drink unless he’s getting laid

He doesn’t drink unless his parents pay

He doesn’t drink when the sun is out

He doesn’t drink when he is down

He only drinks in company

I know I know

He posted about being ill

When he isn’t

He did it for the likes

He did it to say he’s right

He did it so his friends and family

Can hit him up for wasted time

He’s in need of a little attention

He’s in need of a little direction

But he’s alright, more than fine

I know I know

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Again, Again (poem)

I don’t think he knows

Or maybe knows too much

Maybe he feels repulsed

Knowing what I’ve done

Hey man, I don’t mean to

Fall in sight of you

Catching glimpses

Or side nice smile

Think inside its true

He caught me as I fell

Rather fall than stay here

He knows I look him up

To see if he’s sincere

 

I hate myself around him

A stranger living inside me

Pretty face smiles at me

I’ve fallen for the trap

Again, again

 

I think he knows now

How to manipulate me

He knows how to disintegrate me

He knows how to break my spirit

Bruise my ego, kill my soul

Hey man, I don’t mean to

Fall in sight of you

If his eyes are the windows

To his little dark soul

Then I’ve looked at hell

And been back for more

 

I hate myself around him

He knows how to manipulate me

He knows how to call me baby

He knows how to leave me hanging

And I’ll still come back for more

Again, again

 

 

 

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Blind Leading The Blind

Years pass, we age

You’re sinking deeper

Than yesterday

Nothings better now

Falling to the ground

I once tried, to save the day

Your love turned to hate

Couldn’t hold, on to you

Couldn’t pull you through

I called for help

You overdosed

Your family

Kicked me out the door

In fear that I, ruined your life

I knew you played with that knife

You showed me scars

Never healed

You never thought

My love was real

There was once when I could save you

but I was drowning too

If the blind can lead the blind

Then I could lead you too

If the blind can lead the blind

But I don’t think they do

Years pass, can’t save

All those little mistakes

Leading to

Our mutual hate

Nothing’s better now

We went our separate ways

I still remember

The last day I saw your face

You were drunk

A little crazed

I called for help

Thinking I could save you

While I was drowning

Not much to do for you

If the blind can lead the blind

But I don’t think they do

If the blind can lead the blind

But the blind can’t save you from you

 

 

 

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Grass Is Greener

I don’t mean to be offensive

But I feel trapped in the city that watched me grow

I want to escape every day

I feel like its holding me back

Don’t want to sound like I’m above it all

Because I’m really not above anyone

 

I’ll fall in love with the city lights

But not tonight not tonight

Born on the wrong side of the tracks

Crime at night, I mean every night

Under the city lights, city lights

 

I don’t mean to come off as a know it all

Especially when I know nothing at all

The mothers cry as the fathers leave

The kids can’t seem to change a thing

And everyone is stuck on a cycle, repeat

 

We are born where we die

Same street, same misery

Same tears that my mother cried

Same job that my dad denied

 

I’ll fall in love with the city lights

But not tonight not tonight

Born on the wrong side of the tracks

Crime at night, I mean every night

Under the city lights, city lights

 

I admit I hate it

I’ll fall in love with the city lights

But not tonight not tonight

Born on the wrong side of the tracks

Crime at night, I mean every night

Under the city lights, city lights

 

I want to run away from this town

I want to go to the place where

Money talks and I’ve made enough to make the rounds

The grass is greener on the other side

Thats where I want to go

To the place where I won’t have to hide

I don’t mean to sound ignorant

I simply hate this place, its misery